Grief

Loneliness

“Holding onto Anger is like drinking poison and expecting the other person to die.” – Buddha Having grown up abroad to Diplomatic parents, I am often comfortable in loneliness. When you move every 3 years, and grow up in the strange Diplomatic world, extreme loneliness is the norm, I find some solace in that loneliness, …

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self implosion

I just never knew that those lessons my Father had been teaching me would end abruptly before my 20th birthday. This is when my world, my only world, was ripped from under me. I was in University for all of 3 weeks, my parents had just been posted back to Ottawa after 3 years of …

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It’s not a Phobia

My grandfather’s were both pilots during WW2, both fought for the freedom of future generations, both hated violence, both detested raising a fist, a gun or knife to another human being, but both, fought in the name of freedom so we didn’t have to. My Father from a young age, had a gift with words. …

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We Give You a Year

Losing anyone, is painful. Losing a parent, especially at a young age, is devastating. The summer I lost my Father, I somehow, packed my things and headed back to University. It was not something I necessarily wanted to do, I just did not know what else to do. I couldn’t be in the same house …

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The outsider

Yesterday, I wrote about The Breakdown, this is a sort of continuation. With the last breath, that was it. Our diplomatic lives were yesterday, and now, we had to live for tomorrow. Or that was how I felt at least. My Mother on the other hand, went into full Diplomatic mode. The arranging of my …

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The Breakdown

I came in the door, my Mother looked bug-eyed, her eyes sunken, like she had been hiking in the woods for years and had no sleep or food. Her dressing gown, the silk one, she had from China was tied neatly, her hair birding, like it usually did. It was midnight, the lights were all …

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